It Came to Pass

It Came to Pass

It Did Not Come to Stay

 

Oh.  Friends.
Did I struggle?  
Did I fuss and freak, perhaps internally more than externally?  
Everything seemed to be running amuck,
Counter to my perfectly harmonized planning for my big Inner Quest Intensive weekend program.

To name just a few:

Nik the Dog had an abscess on a private body part, 
Which will remain unmentioned, as she requests.

Nik’s weekend caregiver got sick.
Yep, she got sick.
She is, of course, unavailable.

My printer, sorely needed three weeks of the year,
Randomly needed otherwise,
With a final breath,

Printed its last print.

No printer.
Hard for program prep.

Life got 
Incrementally
Harder.

There’s more
But who cares?

Yes, all first-world problems.
But…

Crazy stuff seemed to unfold.

Was life was pulling against me?

Wait.

Or was I pulling against life?

Despite my feelings, 
I began taking actions,
One
Fumbling 
Step at a time
Out there in the void.

A few days of some serious grrrrrrrrrr-ing ensued.

It was frustrating and scary.

And then,
Slow by slow,
It wasn’t.

I outlived the feelings.

Not totally—
They resurface.
They entice.
They seduce.
I decline participation,
Mostly.

Feelings come to pass—they do not come to stay!

Like the waterfall in the picture, 
There is fluidity.
There is flow.
There is movement.

Riding those waves.

Let it come and let it go.

My actions began to tether me back,
Grounding me.

After vet visits, Nik’s abscess is quieting down.

Her committed frenzied attending to that unnamed spot is lessening.
Her Fan-Club-Support-Team is rallying.
She is scheduled through the weekend
For pills, meals, adoration and support.

The Inner Quest is alive and well.
Starting the second day
Of Summer.

Keeping this moment simple.
Allowing this blog to be simple.
Practicing a simple moment.

One breath at a time.

And Summer Solstice has blessed us.
~~~
Here, too, along with Summer Solstice are Deva Premal & Miten, masters of chanting, mantra and meditation.

I Just Close My Eyes