My capacity 
To imagine
The
Absolute
Worst
About life
Has
Had
A 
Long
Mother-
F_ _ _ _ing
Run.

I am declaring
That
Curtain
Closed.

I am declaring
That
Script
Over.

I am declaring
A
New
Beginning,

A beginning
Of
Remembering

That
Maybe,

Just
Maybe,

Decades
Of 
Evidence
Might
Hold
True,

That,

Chances
are

Whatever
Does
Happen—

(Trees
Do fall
On top
Of people,
That is for sure),

That
Whatever
DOES
The
F_ _ _k
Happen,

I will
Find
My
Way.

I have
Found
My
Way.

I will
Continue
To 
Put
My
Foot 
Down,

In the next,
Best spot,

One step at a time,
And
Move 
Forward.

~~~
It makes total sense, this hypervigilance.
It makes total sense,
This preparing
For the worst.

It probably was
A strategy
That supported me,
That kept me safe,

That got me through.

Today?

Nope.
Not so much.

Today, this
Expired
Coping
Mechanism

Is like
A smog
That
Blocks
Me
From
Seeing
The
Beauty
Around 
Me.

If it helped, I would say,
GO FOR IT, FRIENDS.

Go right ahead:
IMAGINE the worst.

PREPARE for it.

HUNKER on down.

It just doesn’t even help.

I am afraid,
The
Cost
Is too high,

The smog
Too thick,

The energy
It takes
To push

Is too-too
Over the top
Of
Too
Much.

It’s just
Not
Worth
It.

Friends,
I am not saying, shit doesn’t happen.

OH NO.

I am saying, 
Shit does
Indeed happen.

Hunkering down
And waiting for
It,
Crouched
And 
Anxious

Is a
Threat
To
Our Being.  
~~~

Let’s pray
To relax.

Let’s request
To soften.

Let’s hope
To see
The
Light,

Not just
Wait,
In fear
Of
The
Darkness.

~~~
Two points of inspiration for me this week.  Here is the extraordinary Eva Cassidy, a voice like none other.  Please open your heart to her rendition of this oldie but goodie.  What she brings to it is nothing short of magnificent.

Eva Cassidy
Over the Rainbow